First Plane Trip and more!

Tomorrow we leave to go to California to see my brother.  Benjamin and him have never met!  I'm super excited.
I am not excited about lugging all the stuff by myself, but such is life.  Too bad the man couldn't get time off with me :(
I'll get over it though.  I can't wait to show Benjamin so many new things.  I know he won't remember, but he will always have pictures!
He will do so many firsts: First time meeting his Uncles.  First time on a Plane, First time leaving the state. First time in California.  First time seeing the Ocean.  phew... and probably many many  more!  Can't wait!

Milk Production

So I've been pumping during working hours, since I started back.  At first I was getting at least 11 ounces each time I pumped.  My output went down a little bit,  So I started pumping in the morning before I went to work as well.  This made it go back up.  However, now I'm making about half of what I was making so 5-6 ounces when I pump. 
This means I am going through my reserves and not getting enough out for my son to eat everyday.

I am also feeling very anxious and upset about this.  LIke I"m not a good enough  mother.  That I am a failure because I'm not producing enough.  I'm going to try to make my supply increase again, and see if there is anything I can do.  Dr. Google said to drink water and get lots of rest.  Which hello, little baby, full time job and school.  Not going to happen.  Wish me luck. 

Past Three Months

Oh baby.  You and I have been so busy the last three months.  Mommy went back to work, and Grandma started babysitting three days, and Daddy two days. 
You love staying with both of them.
Daddy finally saw how much work it is to have the baby all to yourself!
You have started "talking"  and its so cute.
You also look at us, and smile.
You love to interact with people, much better than most of your toys.  Actually you don't really play with toys at all.  Apparently we are way more entertaining.
You do like television though, even with no sound.  You ignore everyone, just like daddy!
This morning I held you and you took steps!  Such a big boy.  I know its a long time until you actually walk, but it was still exciting to see how strong you are.  Talking steps before you even walk!